A Being

Yesterday night was relatively long , yet quenched with a lovely vision…. The image seemed distorted at first. However, it was one of the rare times that a wish comes true that quickly: it was him…..
Thoughts deep inside me tangled as he approached, until he bacame so close to me, closer than ever…. As if my mind stopped functioning that moment, I could think of nothing… How silly one can be!!! I waited so long for such a convenience, but took no steps when it was achieved. Maybe it was the lack of courage, or out of fear - fear that I might lose him… I looked into his eyes, and for the first time, his silence uttered…. As if he could read my disturbed glances, he said to me, “ Yes, I do love you…But my heart won’t grant you the life that you deserve…. I wish I could offer more, but I cannot give what I lack……” I couldn’t comprehend what I felt then: was I happy because he loves me?????? Or is it the misery which chilled my weak soul ???? His question broke that confusion overwhelming me… He asked: “ Do you love me?” But a chunk of pain, stuck in my throat, prevented me from answering…
Today I met him…. I felt his silence had grown tons and tons.. I wanted so deeply to shout: “Yes”…. But will that change anything??!!!!